Thursday, December 08, 2005

disconnected

feeling kinda disconnected lately
more precisely, i dont think i am "disconnected", but rather i am the "disconnector"
simply put, i just dont feel "connected"
in another word, im lacking the sense of "connection"
if you dont understand what im saying
u got it.. u know what i feel
on the other hand, if u think u get it
then im not so sure u do, coz ur preception might be different from what i expect, and u might be right or wrong
anyways

things have stayed the same
im the variable this time
i wouldnt expect ppl to get used to these changes
and i think i hav difficulty getting used to these changes myself
feeling kinda chaotic in the process
so ive delegated my subconscious mind to sort out the mess
hopefully the result would soon come up

i think its the contradiction btw logic and emotion
with new facts or knowledge, ones perception can change through logic
with emotion, the change can be either accelerated or halted
when introducing new ideas and removing old ideas, 2 sets of logic and emotion come together
while the logic of new idea might claim victory, emotion attached to the old idea is usually the one harder to overcome
we know that emotion in many cases can hinder proper logic (just think abt the last time u did somethings so stupid that u want to kill urself afterward)
i think most would agree that good logic = good, and bad logic = bad
so emotion causes bad logic, hence emotion = bad because emotion hurts logic

curiously, logic and emotion have a special connection
like any animal, we hav emotions
most emotions r pretty much hardwired in our brain, in another word, in our genes
some might be products of society, but we r born with the basic ones (anger sadness etc)
one of the most important driving force, is of course the desire for happiness, wutever that is..
note that this desire is biological, and it is there for the rest of ur life
so the quest for seeking happiness starts here
later, ppl discover that through logic and rationalization, we can maximize our happiness (like not to touch fire because its very hot, and very hot = hurt, and hurt = no happy)
of course, we can still learn by emotion through reflex (im thinking abt the experiment of someone getting zapped by one of many objects he can choose from), but its slower (u get zapped many times before u learn, and zapped many times = no happy)
so logic is a fast track to more happiness, since the desire for happiness is an emotion, it follows that logic helps emotion
as concluded above, logic helps emotion, while emotion hurts logic, which usually causes bad logic, and bad logic results unhappiness
in short, logic help emotion and emotion tries to kill logic all the time
so emotion is crazy but we cant change who we r
we can logically conclude that: we are driven by emotion, emotion is crazy, so we r driven by craziness

as human progresses, we use logic more and more
then we start to find out that some ppl seem too logical
they disect everything and break down every action into a cost-benefit analysis
ppl say this kind of ppl lack emotion
but doesnt logic help emotion? how can one be logical and not emotional?
being extremely logical is for someone who has a strong desire for happiness or emotion wants
thus being extremely logical is extremely emotional
logic is only a tool for emotion

hmm how did i get here
back to the topic..
some ppl say that i think too much or think too far
well i just want to be prepared
i think im just being logical
or should i say emotional?

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

globalization

ill writing an essay on globalization
wonder if anyone has put thoughts into it
need some inspiration or a thesis statement!
so if u got any idea, plz comment
thx!

Monday, October 17, 2005

its been 6 months since my last post
and its quite interesting looking back at the posts

alot has happened in this short period of time
alot more than i expected
as a result, i have revised my plan for good

I can go on and talk for hours abt wut i did in the summer but i think thats not wut u r looking for. What are you looking for? The reason u read my post is that u want to get sth out of it if im not mistaken. You may be hoping to get some inspiration for ur paper, amusement for long hrs of studying, or any other reasons, i dont know.

Now, lets expand the scope of the question to your life.


What are you looking for?


let me say it again.
What are you looking for?


Think about the things you must accomplish in your lifetime, or the lifestyle you desire.


Do you have an answer?

If you do, that's great, you already know where you want to go.


If not, you owe yourself an answer.
And no, its not OK if you don't have an answer.
It is a difficult question, but you know too well it's an important one.

I urge you to come up with your answer, starting right now.
You have put it off for more or less 20 years, it's about time you get it done.

Thursday, April 07, 2005

regret




Why do we regret?

However rational we think we are, we can't help but regret for our action or inaction. 明明知道不能改變什麼,卻總把自己放到同一個處境. As though self-punishment is an involuntary behaviour built inside us. I think that is exactly it. From the surface, regretting seems like a useless emotion that serves no purpose but to put us in misery. From the Darwinian point of view, this can only decrease our chance of survival. Then why do we do it? It clearly wouldn't change anything.

One thing is particularly interesting. Say if you forgot to feed your pet, and it dies due to starvation. You would definitely feel remorse (provided that you like your pet), and wish you have done differently, like feeding it. This clearly wouldn't bring your pet into life (no, there is no miracle). Now consider a different scenario. If you forgot to feed it, but it managed to survive at the end by some freak coincidence, would you still feel bad? Probably not nearly as much. This kinda implies that we feel sorry for the things we lost, or the more pleasant alternative situation comparing to the present. Some people may feel sad for the poor dog, and not expressing any remorse is just not "right". But the subject is not specific, we can also feel regret over a burnt computer power cord. What is common is the fact that we feel like shit.

Perhaps this is just a learning mechanism. We only learn fastest if we experience pain either physically or mentally. We can think of regretting as a self-inflicted pain that we subconsciously impose on ourselves. Whenever a similar situation occurs, the pain is remembered, and hopefully prevents us from making the same mistake.

What if the mistake is so unique that it would not happen again ever? It probably means that there is no reason for regret.

This process of learning took me long enough already. So much for self-punishment, hopefully I have learned my lessons. For now, self-redemption might be more practical.

Thursday, March 31, 2005

waste

ok i think its time to say sth since i havent said anything for a long time.. and my blog is starting to look abandoned

認識我的都應該知道 im somewut passionate abt the environment and stuff
when ppl ask me y i study chem eng, i say i wanna save the world
i usually say that just for the comedy effect (for some reason its strangly humorous)
but it is in fact the only reason y i study wut im studying

big dream eh?
so idealistic while so unrealistic
but i just think that -
knowing that i may very possibly fail is not an excuse for not trying

不太知道要怎麼接下去了
coz there r so many ideas floating around
i would love it if i could cover all but its just not possible
maybe if u r interested u can just ask me in person..
damn it its hard to put ideas in words


ok
lets start with "waste"
as in garbage, electricity, water, and any of the resources
i think most ppl already understand the concept im goin to talk abt, but some might not
first of all, i want to say that i hate ppl who force me into believing wut they think is right
so im here just trying to convey these ideas, and u can decide if u want to keep them.


for any fossil fuel, once u burn it its not coming back
electricity is not very much different because a great portion of electricity is generated by non-renewable sources like natural gas, coal, nuclear and others (there r few more important ones but i forgot)

for plastic and other non-decomposible materials like styrofoam, once u use it, its gonna be in the landfill for a freaking long time.

enough with the lecture, here is my point:
it doesnt matter if it cost u 50 dollar or 5 cents, the gas u burned will not come back, and the bento box u used will remain long after u r gone.
the price tag does not mean everything, coz the theory of economics usually neglects environmental impacts

it makes me wonder when i c ppl use ugly, toxic styrofoam rather than regular, washable plates. when i ask them, they say "oh it costs the same" or "oh it costs only 10 cents more". but.. OMFG, if it costs the same, y would u use it at the expense of the ecosystem, and if it costs more.. plz enlight me.. i have no idea y u would do that (except if u hav serious 潔癖)
some ppl also like to turn on comps 24/7 and let them idle. electricity only seems clean because u don c exhaust smoke coming out of ur appliance. the smoke and pollutant are generated at power plants, but u just dont c it. thats the reason y ppl ought to 節約用電, not coz u waste money. in fact, i don care if u r broke paying for electric bills.


if u do not agree, its cool
but plz dont act certain way simply coz im around.. that would make u a phony


phew thats all for today

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

redundant design



The use of one loud alarm clock and one annoying alarm clock is an example of an engineering technique called redundant design. Two alarm clocks are placed in different locations; one serves as the primary system, and the other one serves as the back-up system. With two alarm clocks operating separately, the risk of skipping-due-to-involuntary-oversleep has been greatly reduced. Additionally, the effect of unforeseeable battery depletion scenario is minimized because of the back-up system. The failure rate of this design, however, increases exponentially with the shortening of sleeping time.

hm

i would really like to update my blog
but sleeping is more important
ahhh

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

chem-bio eng

要不是為了拯救世界
我才不會讀chem-bio engineering
累到爆
讀完賺的錢又不多
只能當commerce ppl的奴隸
再加上我chem又不強
也不覺得特別好玩

改天我說不定會想通
and do business and be filthy rich and screw the environment

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

mango ice cream

ive been wondering
how come jap food restaurants only serve green tea and mango ice cream
its logical that they hav green tea flavor coz its a part of their culture
but mango..?

according to MANGO Fruit Facts:
"The mango is native to southern Asia, especially Burma and eastern India. It spread early on to Malaya, eastern Asia and eastern Africa. Mangos were introduced to California (Santa Barbara) in 1880"

furthermore,
"Mangos basically require a frost-free climate. Flowers and small fruit can be killed if temperatures drop below 40° F (4.4° C), even for a short period. Young trees may be seriously damaged if the temperature drops below 30° F (-1.1° C), but mature trees may withstand very short periods of temperatures as low as 25° F (-3.8° C)"

this indicates that mango is not originated from japan nor is it suitable for its climate, with the possible exception in okinawa (In Naha, the capital of Okinawa Prefecture, the year-round average temperature is 22.6 ° C, and even during the winter the lowest monthly average is 13.6 ° C). (Nature and Climate) i hav not yet discovered any cultrual impact caused by mango (unlike green tea).
its unusual to me that mango ice cream is served so commonly in jap restaurants and has become an industrial standard sort of speak. it has become the norm; i imagine if any of us hav a meal in a jap restaurant and the waiter asks if we would like to hav strawberry or coffee ice cream, we wouldnt know how to respond.

its probably just the colour
green and orange makes an analogous colour combination
if green tea ice cream comes with strawberry, it just doesnt look good

cant think of a good conclusion
so ill just end it here

untitled


kinda gone too crazy with the editing
hope its not too unnatural

Monday, January 24, 2005

y?


大家都走了吧
以後可以不時來貼我的屁話了

why blog?
這其實是我長久以來的一個問題
所以在活動之前我遲遲沒申請
而現在我還是沒找到一個很滿意的答案

在我找到答案之前
ill just share my experience and let u see wut i see
.. but why would i want to do this anyway.. hmm i donno
screw it

Sunday, January 23, 2005

Friday, January 21, 2005

sunset


the colour i remember

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

2004 baseball fever


i remember i stayed up whole night watching tw team getting ass kicked
and it was the first baseball game i ever watched from beginning to the end

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Monday, January 17, 2005

Sunday, January 16, 2005

perfect martini


perfect martini

2 1/2 oz Gin
1/2 oz Dry Vermouth
1/2 oz Rosso Vermouth

Stir ingredients and strain into a frosted cocktail glass. Garnish with a twist of lemon, and serve.

Alcohol (ABV): 33% (66 proof)

Saturday, January 15, 2005

38 cents per gallon !!???


u'll hav to zoom in to c the price
不知道是多久以前的油價了

Friday, January 14, 2005

sofa


一張很明顯用PS改過的照片(顆粒特大)
那時候的功夫比現在虛很多
但意外弄出來的天空倒還不錯
滿喜歡這種mood

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Eddy


dont think a caption is necessary

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

a peek into the slaughterhouse


somehow the place looks illegal
i think i watch too much action/crime drama

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

speed


its actually not very fast
for the sake of my own safety

Monday, January 10, 2005

rocking chair


rocking chair
台灣朋友家拍的
這張是復古style
我覺得有點鬼系列的感覺..尤其是那張椅子
如果用photoshop摸一下的話
應該可以滿恐怖的

Sunday, January 09, 2005

faking a pee puddle


doesnt hav any particular meaning
but perhaps someone could figure out for me

Saturday, January 08, 2005

granville island


hey phoebe does this count as 3 pics?

Friday, January 07, 2005

Bear


以前養的小狗
叫熊熊(是母的)
這是他的招牌動作
滿沒有原則的
看到陌生人就翻過來

當初我姐為了要養她,又不想被我媽罵
於是找了個朋友客串,假裝是他的狗要送給我們養
本來我姐已經幫她取名字叫"球球"
但後來我弟問她叫什麼
那個朋友想了想..說,熊熊
可能是他聲音太低沉或當初沒溝通好吧
反正後來她就變成熊熊了
嗯..其實還滿適合她人來瘋的個性

btw 那不是我的手

Thursday, January 06, 2005


for R rated version plz boost up the contrast urself
(photo by alphaii)

Wednesday, January 05, 2005


best parking permit in van
anytime, anywhere

Monday, January 03, 2005


midnight runway